Childhood Aspirations! (Moar lyke, Asspirates, amirite?)

Lol.
I'm sorry, I'm really amused by my title.
Hahaha.

Okay.

I was thinking lately. Yeah I know. I do that sometimes.
About where I want to go, what I've always wanted to do, what I think I can do, etc. Because, shocker, I'm still stuck and lost and only have a few more years to go before I become a Basement Dweller. I don't want to be THAT person...especially since by than I'd have SWTOR...and would literally be, like, an upstairs dweller. Who would live off of Ramen noodles, and not pay for wireless, but would use it anyways, and who bum rides off my parents (Even though I have a car now, I probably would have traded it in to buy a super computer, because that's what Basement Dwellers do. Think Alienware.) Oh, and than I'd be overweight (lolololol check. SHUT UP LET ME HAVE THIS ONE THING TO COMPLAIN ABOUT. Geez, you people and bringing up my self esteem all the time... ...tell me I'm pretty plz?) and than I'd wear the same gigantic stainy shirt (everyone wonders what that stain is here, especially since...) and than I'd have a stubbly disgusting unshaven face because I'm convinced that once you become a Basement Dweller regardless of gender, this just comes with the territory. Yeah, and I stay in my cave (room). Nasty.

Well anyways. To the point (lie.)

I thought it'd be fun to sit here and think about all my possible career choices and how that's changed over the years. So I'm doing it in front of a keyboard...(OMG is that something that a Basement Dweller would do?! *SHAVES*)

So back when I was a wee little child my dreams were...

• Be an Astronomer (No thanks. This sounded like it would be amazing to me but staring at the same picture of a star for years doesn't appeal to me anymore.)
• Become a Scientist (Would have been cool if I actually turned out to be any good at Science.)
• Become a Pokemon
• Go to Hogwarts (Would if I coooould.)
• Become a Professional Lego Tester (This would be the life, but they can't be payed much. XD)

• Play in the London Symphony Orchestra conducted by John Williams, preferably performing movie soundtracks. (I would still love do this. This is definitely one of those specific dreams that you wish could happen but never will. Johnny is getting up there too in age, there is no way I could make this happen. But I know that I technically *could* get there. I have the means. I play the trumpet, if I perfected it I'd have a shot. But that would take a lot of TIME and rigorous practicing and training. Not going to happen.)
• Be a singer, actress, movie director, etc. (All of these are unrealistic. I think it would be a lot of fun to be a singer. I don't have the voice though. I think it'd be so much fun to play a character in a movie, get in there head and really make the audience get in your shoes. I don't have the training or probably talent. Being a director would be fun too, but I just don't know how to make this happen. It's such a terrible world to get into, and it saddens me how few of them really take what they have seriously. Honestly, I could get payed nothing, and I would act in as many movies as possible. I've always wanted to just BE apart of it. I love watching 'Making of" documentaries on any of my favorite movies, and I always think, I could so be that extra right there or I could so be one of those people who tells everyone to 'Quiet on set!". Just to be a part of it and help make a film, is more rewarding than money or fame (I also don't want this, so honestly, not going to happen if I'm not going to whore myself around to network).
• Become an author of novels, publish. (I think anyone could make this happen. All you need to do is hone your craft. Thing about writing is, you can get better and keep working on it on your own time. You don't NEED professional training, it's just something you can get done if you spend the time to improve. I'd have a loooong way to go to get to this level, but I think it's possible one day.)
• Be a Disney Animator (lol. Impossible. I don't have the talent or skill for this. Empty dream really.)
• Be an Archaeologist (Probably the best thing for me. I love history right? Specifically anything before the Modern Era...so finding things that I adore and love and sharing my findings with the world would be truly rewarding. Besides, there are secrets and things that remain undiscovered and I feel like someone NEEDS to find it for everybody! Sort of like a mass team effort of every Archaeologist. For example, I NEED to find Alexander the Great and Genghis Khan and what not because honestly, we need them found. I just feel that way about history. Someone has to do it, and I'd LOVE to volunteer my services. To get payed to do something I love is a dream in and of itself, but to get payed while I live and breathe history, and I'm busy digging up, writing about, displaying, and explaining the past would make me so happy.

• On the above note, wouldn't it be great if I worked at a Museum? (God that would be so amazing too. To just walk around and tell people what I know, and try to teach them something about history in a fun and interesting way. Gosh! I'm always so excited about history, I'd love to get other people excited about it too! Please please please let me take the kids on a tour!)
• Hmm. I could always write history books....which leads me to...
• To adapt classic novels (Such as Tales of Genji, Epic of Gilgamesh, etc.) to be readable by mass audiences. (Seriously. These kind of books are so important to us, and most people don't even know it. The majority of the population will never hear of these books, and none of them will bother to try reading them. Unfortunately they are just so old. Translations are rough or hard to get through and the language just puts people off. But if I could adapt and shape the writing to fit ordinary people so they could read a 'dumbed' down version, that would be better than them not reading at all. All that would be done is the language wouldn't be so hard to get through, all someone has to do is clean it up a bit more, and these stories could really appeal to more people than just the history or student of classic literature. All of these stories have the same characteristics of stories we have today. Tales of Genji (*cough**cough* is pretty much written by Japanese Stephanie Meyer for the entertainment of other ladies, still has waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay x9000 substance, but still) is a good example, if it were made more modern. Half the people who would really enjoy it, are reading similar novels anyways. We'd still have the higher level classics, meant for audiences who don't mind or enjoy slogging through a tough book, but I think it'd be great if people who like to read casually could do so with one of these books.

Hmm. I feel like stopping. Because, ironically, I want to go to bed and read my TIME 'Great Discoveries: Explorations that Changed History."

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I know what I should do, clearly. Anyone can see it just by what I wrote about above, but I'm still afraid this is the easy way out.

A part of me still holds on to those unrealistic dreams, and I suppose maybe that is what is holding me back. I'm afraid that if I settle on one thing, I have to part ways and say goodbye to the other aspirations.

I just need to find a way to keep them there, in a healthy way, while I pursue something I know I can successfully do.