Since you're one of the most important women in my life, I thought I should share ^_^
1.Are you content with life? Why or why not?
2.What does it mean to be an adult?
3.Why did your last relationship end? (I know I already asked this. I know.)
4.Most rigid change in your opinions on something/values in the last year?
5.What has been your biggest accomplishment in the past year?
6.Happiest you’ve been this year/why?
7.Most depressed you’ve been this year/why?
8.Do you feel you are resistant to change?
9.What do you really think of Hamline? I mean REALLY think of Hamline?
10. Greatest discovery this year?
2.What does it mean to be an adult?
3.Why did your last relationship end? (I know I already asked this. I know.)
4.Most rigid change in your opinions on something/values in the last year?
5.What has been your biggest accomplishment in the past year?
6.Happiest you’ve been this year/why?
7.Most depressed you’ve been this year/why?
8.Do you feel you are resistant to change?
9.What do you really think of Hamline? I mean REALLY think of Hamline?
10. Greatest discovery this year?
Those were the questions. Here were my answers:
1. I'm pretty pleased with my life. However, as much as I am pleased with the level of comfort and ease of my living conditions, it often feels as though none of the things I have accomplished have ever been accomplished as a product of my own individual agency. Where I live, the clothes I wear, the food I eat are all things I have a say in choosing, but they're all provided by my parents. I'm gonna get me a little job and start making enough pocket change to afford my own clothes, howzabout? It'd be a nice reprieve from being a dependent brat.
2. Maybe I'm in the process of actually committing to growing up, since I'm all antsy about this independence thing. Maybe being a grownup has to do with getting your own shit done. It entails a lot of knowing whose opinions matter and whose don't... whose advice to follow and when you gotta make up your own mind.
3. Last time, it was because I was starting to take someone seriously who probably shouldn't be taken seriously. I was weirdly attracted to his personality; he had a charming way of straddling pompous arrogance and self-assured confidence. In the end, though, he didn't embody any of those grownup qualities for which I have this shitty-ass sense of yearning. In short, he wasn't ready to be an adult. That and the chain-smoking was eventually going to kill him and take me with him. Now I have the opposite problem... a really nice guy with his life pretty together... and a personality that lacks charisma. Eh... you can't have it all, right? It might also have to do with the fact that I'm probably way more selfish than I like to admit. I'm really over the idea of giving things up to make someone else happy just because I claim the "boyfriend" label. If I'm not happy, something's clearly wrong, and I'm gonna figure it out for myself. Besides, if you forget yourself because you're way too concerned about the other person, who's gonna be there for you when it's all over if not yourself? I want to be there for me because I can entrust my own happiness to myself more so than any other person in the world.
4. I am now a romantic with hope as opposed to a hopeless romantic? Like, honestly, I had the romantic aspirations of a twelve-year-old girl obsessed with Twilight before college. That's pretty gross. Feelings are nice, but sometimes you gotta think about what you're getting yourself into quantifying feelings is tough, but put I'm gonna have to put a little thought into it.
5. Uh... the things I accomplished probably only matter to me. My biggest accomplishments usually pretty personal things. As far as events, that Take Back the Night stuff was pretty hefty.
6. I figured out how to use Amazon, and I ordered a shit ton of VHS tapes from my childhood. Also, I found Midway books, and I spent a good twenty minutes sniffing the pages of books that far outdated me. That was euphoric.
7. Ooh! Ooh! David was being an insensitive jerk one night, and he mentioned something to the effect that nobody can reclaim their childhood once it's gone, and that was what I had spent my entire first year in college trying to accomplish. I "forgave" him for it, but I still harbor a very deep-seated sense of resentment toward him for that very reason. Yes, I hold a grudge.
8. YES. I might be a liberal-minded person, but I will change and change until I achieve comfort, and if comfort changes, I just hate it. Yes, ideologically, I'm very left. I'm annoyingly pre-packaged Hamline material, depressingly enough, but I also happen to be very temperamentally conservative. Sure, I value justice and equality. Those are all nice things, but, personally (and perhaps a little selfishly), I treasure stability and safety. This sort of ideological conflict is a lot of times reflected in my relationships. Probably part of the reason why I ♥ Sydney oodles and oodles is because, if we had to box her in somewhere, she is considered "liberal," but we know that's a gross generalization we all make. I'll welcome change so long as it isn't a detriment to my happiness and well-being. If my neighbors want to smoke weed, that's awesome. It doesn't affect me. If my neighbors have a polyamorous relationship, more power to them. If my neighbors are into some really kinky shit, I encourage them to do whatever makes them happy. That idea of "progression" and "acceptance" is so outdated. Those things should be a given because I can understand that other people are doing things for their own happiness, and I can respect that they're not stepping on my toes or anyone else's to achieve that satisfaction. However, if something I could depend very reliably goes through an unprecedented change because of some stupid idea that someone else's well-being takes precedence over mine, then I'm going to Wal-Mart and buying me a rifle.
9. Hamline is comfortable enough... for me. I know a lot of people take issue with the environment at Hamline, but it hasn't bothered me, personally. I do hate the bureaucratic nonsense of the administration and of HUSC, and I certainly do not respect the way the admins have decided to address certain issues on campus (the blog thing). However, I won't say I don't like it here. There are other places I could be, and I know for a fact that I'm happiest here. I may not be perfectly and indisputably happy all the time here, but, hey, I appreciate what I got.
10. My roommate sets the highest standard of any guy I've ever been with, and he's straight. FML.
2. Maybe I'm in the process of actually committing to growing up, since I'm all antsy about this independence thing. Maybe being a grownup has to do with getting your own shit done. It entails a lot of knowing whose opinions matter and whose don't... whose advice to follow and when you gotta make up your own mind.
3. Last time, it was because I was starting to take someone seriously who probably shouldn't be taken seriously. I was weirdly attracted to his personality; he had a charming way of straddling pompous arrogance and self-assured confidence. In the end, though, he didn't embody any of those grownup qualities for which I have this shitty-ass sense of yearning. In short, he wasn't ready to be an adult. That and the chain-smoking was eventually going to kill him and take me with him. Now I have the opposite problem... a really nice guy with his life pretty together... and a personality that lacks charisma. Eh... you can't have it all, right? It might also have to do with the fact that I'm probably way more selfish than I like to admit. I'm really over the idea of giving things up to make someone else happy just because I claim the "boyfriend" label. If I'm not happy, something's clearly wrong, and I'm gonna figure it out for myself. Besides, if you forget yourself because you're way too concerned about the other person, who's gonna be there for you when it's all over if not yourself? I want to be there for me because I can entrust my own happiness to myself more so than any other person in the world.
4. I am now a romantic with hope as opposed to a hopeless romantic? Like, honestly, I had the romantic aspirations of a twelve-year-old girl obsessed with Twilight before college. That's pretty gross. Feelings are nice, but sometimes you gotta think about what you're getting yourself into quantifying feelings is tough, but put I'm gonna have to put a little thought into it.
5. Uh... the things I accomplished probably only matter to me. My biggest accomplishments usually pretty personal things. As far as events, that Take Back the Night stuff was pretty hefty.
6. I figured out how to use Amazon, and I ordered a shit ton of VHS tapes from my childhood. Also, I found Midway books, and I spent a good twenty minutes sniffing the pages of books that far outdated me. That was euphoric.
7. Ooh! Ooh! David was being an insensitive jerk one night, and he mentioned something to the effect that nobody can reclaim their childhood once it's gone, and that was what I had spent my entire first year in college trying to accomplish. I "forgave" him for it, but I still harbor a very deep-seated sense of resentment toward him for that very reason. Yes, I hold a grudge.
8. YES. I might be a liberal-minded person, but I will change and change until I achieve comfort, and if comfort changes, I just hate it. Yes, ideologically, I'm very left. I'm annoyingly pre-packaged Hamline material, depressingly enough, but I also happen to be very temperamentally conservative. Sure, I value justice and equality. Those are all nice things, but, personally (and perhaps a little selfishly), I treasure stability and safety. This sort of ideological conflict is a lot of times reflected in my relationships. Probably part of the reason why I ♥ Sydney oodles and oodles is because, if we had to box her in somewhere, she is considered "liberal," but we know that's a gross generalization we all make. I'll welcome change so long as it isn't a detriment to my happiness and well-being. If my neighbors want to smoke weed, that's awesome. It doesn't affect me. If my neighbors have a polyamorous relationship, more power to them. If my neighbors are into some really kinky shit, I encourage them to do whatever makes them happy. That idea of "progression" and "acceptance" is so outdated. Those things should be a given because I can understand that other people are doing things for their own happiness, and I can respect that they're not stepping on my toes or anyone else's to achieve that satisfaction. However, if something I could depend very reliably goes through an unprecedented change because of some stupid idea that someone else's well-being takes precedence over mine, then I'm going to Wal-Mart and buying me a rifle.
9. Hamline is comfortable enough... for me. I know a lot of people take issue with the environment at Hamline, but it hasn't bothered me, personally. I do hate the bureaucratic nonsense of the administration and of HUSC, and I certainly do not respect the way the admins have decided to address certain issues on campus (the blog thing). However, I won't say I don't like it here. There are other places I could be, and I know for a fact that I'm happiest here. I may not be perfectly and indisputably happy all the time here, but, hey, I appreciate what I got.
10. My roommate sets the highest standard of any guy I've ever been with, and he's straight. FML.
Ta-da!
Oh Trung, I am so honored to have you in my life.
ReplyDeleteI'd have to say you're pretty much the most down-to-earth person I know.
I'm personally feeling the same way about Independence right now too. It's hard because even with a job, it's still hard to support yourself while going to and paying for college at the same time. I've pretty much convinced myself though that this is the toughest hurdle, and once you get your degree and secure yourself a job, all of your dependency will start to unravel. Atleast, that's what I hope right?
And I'm so glad you're not a hopeless romantic but rather one with hope now. It's really nice to see someone who is realisticly optimistic.
I think maybe I should fill this out too? (replacing the Hamline question)
Oh, and I'm so proud of you and Take Back the Night. I really wish I didn't have to work that day, because I would have loved to come down and show my support!
And hopefully our collaboration will be another accomplishment this year. I'm actually pretty excited and eager to get this stuff rolling. =)